Essays exploring religion, belief, doubt, deconversion, and what remains after faith.
I spent most of my life believing Christianity was true. This is the story of my deconstruction, the slow collapse of the arguments, institutions, and theology that sustained my faith, and the deconversion that followed. It is also about what remained after belief: truth, morality, beauty, compassion, and the uneasy freedom of admitting that when it comes to God, I simply don’t know.
Read PostApologetics promises certainty, but certainty can come at a cost. When every unanswered question threatens your faith, salvation, or identity, inquiry becomes defense. What happens when we stop looking for answers that are merely “good enough” and learn to live with uncertainty instead?
Read PostFaith deconstruction is often portrayed as rebellion, bad teaching, church hurt, or an excuse to sin. But deconstruction is rarely so simple. It is an open-ended process of questioning the beliefs, authorities, and assumptions that once held a worldview together—and asking whether they can still carry the weight of reality.
Read PostPurity culture taught a generation of evangelicals that sex outside marriage made them dirty, damaged, and less desirable. From abstinence-only education to marital obligation and sexual shame, here’s what purity culture got wrong—and why a human being was never a rose to begin with.
Read PostMy father asked me to forgive him while he was dying. I couldn’t. What followed was a confrontation not only with a lifetime of abuse, but with the Christianity that taught me forgiveness was an obligation owed to the person who hurt me. This is about fathers and gods, death and grief, and what happens when “I’m sorry” is no longer enough.
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